My Gender

my gender, Voidshiftive, originating from This Reddit Post means someone who feels as though their body is a prison for the swirling, shifting void of gender within, and that people who have this gender may express those fluctuations in who they are through dress, voice, etc.

if my gender could be separated from my body, or I could shift to match my gender, then the header image above describes what an outside perspective, looking upon my gender would see, or me, if I were able to shift to match my gender. a multi-coloured, multi-centre, and multi-energy swirling void, roiling like a swirling flame (photoshopped but Here's The Starter Image)

it feels as though there is this powerful, shifting, incessant, changing, and ever present void inside of me that is somehow alive, and dictates my behaviour, actions, and life. it ebbs and flows to the whims of life, myself, and my emotions, and I change my self expression and behaviour to match it. it is as though it is a flame trapped within my chest, a burning black flame of void energy, lapping at my insides, begging to be let loose, and it moves with my emotions, changing in intensity, form, colour, shape, pattern, etc, all depending to those emotions. it's as if my emotions are the fuel for the flames, and the flames change with those emotions, and I change my self expression and behaviour in response to the flaming void, and in turn my emotions change, changing the flaming void yet again, as if it is an energetic feedback loop of gender, emotions, expression, and behaviour, and my body is the unfortunate prison for this writhing loop.

the reason my colour scheme on the site is how it is is because it matches the void inside me that is my gender. tons of black and red as I am dark, and my heart is black, and red for crimson and hellfire, me being a Demon Alter and all, and they're my favourite colours. purple to acknowledge my large amounts of femininity, and a smaller amount of blue for my slight masculinity.